Nothing Left to Give

I have poured out everything I've got
I have nothing left to give
There is no more life to live
Through these endless moments
I stumble and fall
Deeper and deeper
Into this ocean of hell

Slice open my heart
Grab the stone of pain
Throw it out to rot
Empty space is what is left
Void is to be found
Never feel pain again

Drowning in your tears
From your cold eyes
I will never know
If what you feel
Is something real,
So say goodbye
To this soul
Forget the past
Just let it go

Floating deeper

2011-05-24

Moments of deception,
Fill the void of tomorrow,
Last night was just a dream,
Today is another day of hope,
Trembling towards a glimpse of joy

When our eyes meet
I can see your soul
you are such a mystery
cannot resist it, it’s dragging me in,
You’re undressing me, without a touch

Deeper we float in the ocean of love,
What is you and what is me?
Can’t control this much longer
You have unlocked my hidden truth
from a life spent without you

While you are digging in so deep
The sound of my heart is echoing
emotions are becoming so fervent
cannot hide them any longer
breathing in and breathing out
to the sound of your beating heart

Those precious moments
I hold so dear
Remind me of a time
When you were near
Now I've lost the path
To where you are
But you should not worry
I will find you soon
and bring you back home
to my heart

Days are longer
Nights are painful
Now and then it's hard to breathe
There is no other cure
Than your loving touch
No matter what they say
I will be here the day
You decide to wake up.

Join me in Death

Why prolong the endless pain
When there is something awaiting
Life after this inevitable death
I've been expecting you, my love
To be beside my bed of pain
Where you'd help me out of miserability
Take my hand and lead me to the other side
No need to see my veins bleed
All I need for you to see is
What is missing when I'm gone
No more tears, no more pain
I'd be your angel throughout life
Guarding your soul til you join me
When you join me
In death

My Endless Love

It's tied around my heart
- The Rope

It's making me want to scream
- The Pain

The blood pumps through my veins
- In Vain

I'm about to take one last breath
- To Sleep

Drown in to an eternity of dreams
- Bliss

Empowered by your endless love
- To Death

The Monsters inside

Every day I inhale the air
No day is the other alike
Still, I end up in this place
Year after year,
Time after time,
Unavoidable, and in vain I try
To overcome the monsters inside

They tell me about the other side
How much better I'd feel in eternal sleep
Than in this miserableness
In the core of my soul
It returns to me like a drug
I cannot avoid
Just like a needle
That tears me up
And makes me feel alive

Cutting emotions with a blade
Slice them up with a knife
Blood is not the only red
That pours out from my heart
Until the last drop
There is only one thing left
That is and always will be
The love for you.

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There's only one thing that can make me feel better in moments when I write pieces like this; and that is to write it off my chest. I am aware that this text is one of the darkest poems I've written in a long long time. Like the poem states, it's somehow inevitable, they always return to me. For better or worse, in sickness and health.

Maybe I should try to write a bit after each poem with some comments, but I want to leave the poems up to the reader to interpret for themselves.

/Kimmi

In the vaccum of Truth

I found this piece of poem in my notebook which is filled with a lot of different scribbling, everything from university stuff to poems and story writing. So here goes, enjoy!

There is a flow of emotions
Floating through the room
In the vaccum of truth,
A moment of silence
Where there is no suffering
And the air is clear and light
I still walk around with this halo
On top of my head
Since the day I found purpose,
Since the day I found you